Soooo a bunch of people were asking me WHO the guy that made fun of me was??? The answer is that I honestly and truley DO NOT KNOW!!! I can't remember annnnnd IF I did, i wouldn't even say annnnnnd I'm not even mad about it nor dwelling on it anymore!! I was just trying to express the way i felt at the time!!! I'm a very forgiving person annnnd we're all human annnnnnd I've made mistakes and mAde fun of people before too without thinkin about it!!! Soooo yeah... It's all GOOD!!! Plus, I mean I hav brothers that make PLENTY OF COMMENTS FOR ME... One of them left an anon comment to me: "Sooooo did you break the bench???" Lololol i knew immediatley it wS him...BROTHERS!!! Anyone else had left it i woulda been mad!!! I tell ya... They are soooo obnoxious buuuuuut kinda funnnnny!!! (Rolls eyes!) God's just preparing me for a husband!!! Haha
This is the Heritage conference that I went with good self-esteem and LEFT with BAD SELF-ESTEEM! I've ALWAYS thought that I was beautiful...ALWAYS...buuuuuut that all changed in about one minute!!! It was Heritage 2004...eight years ago...I was 21 years old. We were at this youth thing and some guy made fun of me...pretended that the picknik bench I was sitting down at was breaking...the rest of the week...I thought...I'm NOTHING!!!
I specifially remember the last night....wearing this outfit...everyone said I looked sooooo pretty and I PRETENDED to act like I thought I did...buuuuuut I remember looking in the mirror and thinking, YOU LOOK HORRIBLE!!! Your NOTHING BUT A BIG FAT BLOB! No guy will EVER like you!!!
It really shook me for a while!!! I have heard people say, if people make fun of you, just change it!!! Thats A LOT easier to say, than to do!!! I can remember the feeling of absolute helpless-hopelessness about my situation!!! I was in the 400's!!! I didn't have 20, 50, 80 or EVEN just 100 pounds to lose...OVER 200 pounds!!! That meant that EVEN if I lost 100 pounds... which in itself seemed a miserable and unconcievable task...I would still have ANOTHER 100 pounds to lose! I couldn't even fathom it!!!
I come from a family of OVER WEIGHT people...buuuuuuuut I was the biggest out of EVERYONE!!! Do you know how that feels??? To know that your the fattest of the fattest...It feels HORRIBLE!!! It feels HOPELESS!!!
I guess what I'm trying to say is that when you see a really huge fat person, try NOT to make fun of them! You have NO IDEA how your lil comment may effect them!!! I know we're all human and we make mistakes...buuuuut just remember that the fatty that your laughing at is a human too...WITH REAL FEELINGS...JUST LIKE YOU!!! Instead of mocking them...have COMPASSION...you HAVE NO IDEA what they may be feeling inside...pray for them!!! Pray that God will help them and give them the strength to OVERCOME their weakness!!!
I'm gonna make it you guys...I'm GONNA DO IT...cuz I know God is gonna help me!!! Thank you everyone!!! Love you all and keep me in your prayers!!! :))))
Soooo I joined the gym back in August and have been pretty faithful with it!!! Buuuuuut basically I hav NO CLUE what I'm doing!!! Lololol soooo today I did my FIRST day with a personal!!! I am soooo excited about it! Not only is she going to work with me excercisebut also nutrition as well!!! She also seems super down to earth but really hard core at the same time!!! She was going over my whole routine with me and was like ok, how are you with remembering stuff??? I'm like ummm well considering you just asked me my age annnnd I had to think about it for like 15 seconds... Lol... She was like oh yeah! Ok! Annnnd she wrote down EXACTLEY EVERYTHING I needed to do, how many times and the weight! I was like niiiice!!! She also asked me what my goal was and I said that for right now, my first goal was to weigh 260 and she that she was going to help me get there... Buuuut at the same time she said she just wanted to let me know that she doesn't actually give a $&@&$?!$&@ about my goal... She cares about me being healthy and she said that your weight isn't actually what determines your health. They have this body fat percentage thing and she said me being healthy could end up me weighing less OR MORE than what I think and we're not going to determine my health off of a set chart!!! Soooo yeah... It went well annnnd I'm super excited!!!! :) everyone keep me in your prayers!!!!
I DID PEOPLE!!! I made it three whole weeks on the DAINIEL FAST WITH NO COFFEE!!! And only eating fruits, veggies, nuts and whole weat, brown rice!!! Are ya all proud of me or WHAT??? I lost 8 pounds which isn't HUGE...buuuut still a success!!!
I plan on taking the day off TOMORROW!!! Going to Starbucks and getting Spinatos Pizza...THEN starting on Saturday, I am planning on doing another 21 days and THIS TIME, i'm going to count calories for all the foods I eat that are NOT fruits and veggies!!! I'm EXCITED!!! I like this way of eating and have come up with some great recipies...after the next 21 days, I will access myself and see what I want to do next!!!
EVEN IF the weight loss is slower...I'm learning to make healthy habbits for life...and thats what its ALL ABOUT!!! :)))
Sooooo I DID join the Daniel Fast last Wednesday and am doing FABULOUS so far!!!! Its pretty easy after doing HCG!!! LOL You wanna know what the HARDEST part so far has been for me??? No artificial sweetners ANNNNND know COFFEE!!! Since living a life of dieting, i've gotten VERY used to incorporating these two things into MY LIFE OF EATING!!!! HAHA!!! Buuuut other than that i'm doing GREAT!!!
I made this vegetarian chili...its soooo GOOD!!! I made MY OWN tomato juice/sauce from fresh tomatos, then added in four different kinds of beans, carrotts, corn fresh from the cob, carrotts, onion, kale and ALL KINDS of seasonings!!! Know idea of the EXACTS for anything!!! I just add a lil bit of this and a lil bit of that and a pinch of this and scoopful of that annnnnd...
THEN, i cup up cilantro, red onions, scallions and sprinkle it on top...
Sooooooo a group of us are starting the Daniel fast THIS WEDNESDAY, August 1st!!! If anyone is interested in joining feel free...I was going to make an email list for people that want to join and we can support each other and stuff.
The point IS...to cleanse your systen from all the unatural things we put into it ANNNND to draw closer to God!!! (And lose weight too...LOL) This is a way for 21 days to say ok God, i'm just gonna eat the natural things you made and refrain from fillin my body, YOUR TEMPLE, with a buncha junk and chemicals. Also, make a list of things that you want to focus on God doing in your life.
Basically, the Daniel Fast is an all vegan diet for 21 days...or longer if you like!!! :) So for 21 days you just eat all fruits and veggies and seeds and nuts and WHOLE WEAT products, and NOTHING with leaven!!! (soooo NO BREAD for sure) No sweetners including artificail sweetners and NOTHING buuuut WATER to drink!!! Which isn't a big deal to me...cuz ALL I drink mostly is WATER...
buuuuuut then I REALIZED...
COFFEE IS NOT WATER!!!!!
(Excuse me while I go make a pot...Two more days...LOL!)
MORE DETAILS to come BUUUUT if your interested in joining let me know!!!
Guess whaaaaaaaaaat everyone??? I finally broke down and JOINED A GYM!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO!!! Like every year I start walkin and I do pretty good...UNTIL like April...annnnnd its just like WAAAAAAY TO HOT until like the end of October and THEN it gets to cold for a couple of months and yeah...basically the weather is just NEVER perfect and I know that a LAME excuse buuuut its a pretty good one when your from AZ!!! LOL! Cuz like I was gonna try and save up for a treadmill and then I NEVERRRR do...I end up going on some trip or something...soooo yeah...
Tuesday I went and joined a place called YOUFIT!!! It looks pretty cool!!! THe guy was all like trying to sell me with the fact that they are a green company...I was like Okaaaaaay enough about the environment...do you REALLY think I care?!?! I mean just sayin'!! This is about me...lookin GOOOD...I mean being healthy!!! ;) I've worked out both days now soooo yeah...i'm pretty ya know...PROUD!!! HAHA!!! The first day I burned 200 calories and yesturday I burned 247...OH YEAH!!! HAHA!!!
If anyone has any excercise work out tips or whatever let me know!!! Oh and also, I got the membership that I can bring ANY ONE PERSON with me at anytime to join me in a workout...soooooo WHO WANTS GO TO WITH ME??? :]
I'm like SUCH A GOOD COOK people ACTUALLY STEAL MY DIET FOOD!!! Noooo LIE...thats JUST HOW GOOD I AM!!! I make healthy taste GOOOOOOOOOOD!!! My BFF's in the kitchen are COCONUT OIL AND SPICES!!! I refuse for my food to be bland...ANNNND ITS NOT!!! :)
Have you all NOTICED that I have NOT updated??? Its because I have NOT lost anymore weight!!! For the last two months I have just MAINTAINED my weight...which I know is a good thing BUUUUT not really all that exciting!!! Yup, I've had JUST ENOUGHT self-discipline to NOT gain weight...BUT, NOT enough to cut back enough to lose MORE!!!
. Seeee HERE I am...
TOTALLLLLY LUVIN the way I LOOK!!! ;)
(Looook...I'm wearin a BELT and it ACTUALLLLLY LOOKS GOOD!!! (Holla!;) )
Sooooo here is HOW I maintain my weight...EVERY MORNING...when I wake up...the FIRST THING I DO is...
I weight myself AND then I write down my weight on a calender. I've learned that the best thing I can do is FACE the truth EVERY MORNING!!! People say that scales lie, blah, blah, blah...me and my scale are TIGHT!!! I refuse to live in denial!!! It lets me know, that HEEEEy, you gained a pound YESTURDAY, TODAY you had better cut back and LOSE that pound...you have to face it RIGHT there!!! If you don't get rid of it...another pound will come sneakin along, then another one and another one!!!
Sooooo there you all have it...the HONEST truth...I'm NOT wear I want to be YET....buuuut I am learning HOW to keep off what I have lost...which I have NEVERRRR been able to do before!!! :) ♥Mary Frances :)
Heeeeey if anyone can HELP ME...blog keeps coming up with THIS whenever I try to post on my blog...like when I got to blogger.com it comes up with THIS... Error 324 (net::ERR_EMPTY_RESPONSE): The server closed the connection without sending any data.
Its happening on BOTH of the computers at my house even after restarting them...HELP me people!!! ClassicMaryMoments is on a HALT!!! ugh!!!
I started BACK on HCG TODAY!!! Wooot! WOOOOT!!! I'm sooooo EXCITED!!! One of my friends text me today and was like, "Did you start HCG again?" I was like whaaaaaaaaat??? How did you know??? Like TOTAL STALKER right??? She's like, "I read your BLOG!!!" i'm like OH YEAH...DUH!!! HAHA!!!
AnywayZ, today and tomorrow are LOADING days soooo yeah...these days are GLORIOUS eat whateverrr you want days...sweeeeeeeeet!!! HAHA!!! Then its 500 calories again...WOOOOT!!! I guess i'm really excited cuz I have this dress that I am just DYING to wear...but its like a lil too tight...BUUUUUUUUUUUT when it fits OMW...I can't wait...AND I want it to fit in time for WHAAAAAAAAAAAT???
Heeeeey!!!! Weeeeelllll its been a while since I updated this thing...mainly cuz I haven't had a WHOLE lot to say!!! LOL! I spent most of the rest of December maintaining my weight and then I just got back from my trip to the PI and have currenlty been working on RE LOSING the pounds that I GAINED...yes GAINED on the trip!!! I gotta be HONEST right???
Weeeelll...I reallly, really, REALLLLY LOOOOOOOOOOVE trying new food...and there was kinda A LOT of partying with my family and at first I was like TOTALLY having a heart attack about gaining ANY weight on the trip...buuuuuuut then my lil brother...THE GROOM-to-be...told me to just like calm down, relax and enjoy myself...because if I continuousley worried about it I wasn't going to have any funNNN! Sooo i did!!! LOL!!! He was like, "Can't you JUST lose it again?!?!" LOL I was like weeeeel DUH!!!
Soooo yeah I tried all kinds of cRaZy weird Filipino and Hawaiian food on the trip!!! And am now losing it!!! Once i've relost the weight I gained on the trip(8 pounds) I'm considering doing another round of HCG!!! Its been a while and I would like to get another big chunk of this weight out of the waY!!!
Ooooo on a more exciteing note....I can feel such a HUGE difference in my physical health!!! My sugar is ALWAYS in the 90's now!!! I CAN NOT BELIEVE IT!!! I am like NEVERRRR tired either!!! I usually wake up early and go to bed waaaaaay late!!! I walked almost every day on this trip and I was quite fast too!!! I climbed up all 214 steps at Chocolate Hills....I chose to use the stairs a LOT instead of the elevator!!! YUP!!! Its pretty awesome!!!